Weight loss: [Challenge] Summer 2021 LoseIt Challenges - WEEK 6 |
- [Challenge] Summer 2021 LoseIt Challenges - WEEK 6
- Why you shouldn’t feel bad about gaining all the weight back
- The scale says 200 this morning. I’m making a pledge right now that my weight will never start with a 2 again.
- The hunger pangs really go away!
- Down 9 pounds!
- I’m in the 210s for the first time in forever! I feel so good about myself!
- Down 10 lbs as of yesterday
- Progress 08/06/22
- I FIT INTO MY GRAD DRES!!!!!!
- I got called the “big one” and it bothered me.
- Growing up in the 90's added fuel to my fire of unhealthy habits and mentality.
- Well, three weeks of CICO and working out 5 days a week…. And I have lost exactly .7lbs
- 30 Day Accountability Challenge - Day 6
- I think I'm in trouble
- 1-year success story/some things I wish I knew early on
- Newbie saying hello and the start of the journey
- 24M 6’0 I just broke 400lbs…
- Butt & Thighs
- Difficulty tracking calories while in the army
- How can I plan to make sure I don’t eat over my calories or binge for the day if I’m eating out?
- Exercise bike milestone: 500kcal in 1hr (-15lbs in 3 months)
- Struggling with weight loss from a new perspective...
- Daily Q&A Post for Saturday, 07 August 2021 - No question too small!
- BAD DAYS, how do you cope?
| [Challenge] Summer 2021 LoseIt Challenges - WEEK 6 Posted: 06 Aug 2021 09:09 AM PDT |
| Why you shouldn’t feel bad about gaining all the weight back Posted: 06 Aug 2021 06:05 PM PDT Because as freaking HARD as it is to get a diet rolling successfully, once you do it feels amazing. Life is great on the way down. You're more active, you're going out having experiences, you feel good about your life, you feel in control, you feel confident. Remember the beautiful sunny days from all the hiking / walking / biking you used to do? How wonderful you felt after exercising on a gorgeous day? Well guess what. You get to do it all again. It only feels horrible because it sucks getting started. In a perfect world you'd stay in shape forever, but as someone who's regained weight at least a dozen times.. I can tell you it's not worth losing your head over. Don't hate yourself. Remember the fun positive experiences you had while losing weight the last time. Allow yourself to miss those experiences. Crave them. Then go get them back again 🥳 [link] [comments] |
| Posted: 06 Aug 2021 05:53 AM PDT This is long and probably really boring to everyone, but I need the catharsis of sharing it, and a reason to hold myself accountable. I'm 5'5" and after a year and a and a half of quarantine I went from 150lbs (chubby but not totally terrible) to 200lbs (obese, stretchmarked, and miserable.) I discovered the hard way during this pandemic that for my entire adult life I have thrived off of having responsibilities to other people, whether it be school or work. After getting laid off in March, moving to a different state in April where I don't know anybody apart from my partner, and the paralyzing fear of getting sick (or my partner or my family getting sick) sending my anxiety & depression off the rails (and by extension kicking my binge eating & drinking habits into overdrive) I lost myself entirely. I've been mostly unemployed for over a year, and while I thought it was going to be some sort of amazing vacation, I HATED it. I alternated between getting hammered with my partner and overeating, and wallowing in bed the next day overeating to nurse my hangover. Long story short, I gained 50 lbs and I feel like shit. I hate the person I've become, and I'm struggling with the fact that my partner is in the same boat as me - he is 6'5" and was 230lbs and the beginning of the pandemic and is hovering around 300lbs now. BUT, I think I'm turning things around. -My family and I are all vaccinated, and even though the delta variant is spiking, my anxiety and depression levels have gone down enormously. -I secured a new job with a killer salary that I'm really excited about. I'm a foodservice management professional, which I know sounds counterintuitive for someone with disordered eating issues, but I LOVE fast paced, on-your-feet-all-day jobs. (And my personality is such that I can't stand breakfast, basically can't stand eating lunch when I'm working unless I'm FAMISHED, and don't even think about binging because I've got too much work on my mind. Years ago I fell into the habit of more or less doing one meal a day, in the evening, before I even knew what intermittent fasting was.) -Started working out again. I have an elliptical, a recumbent bike, and a walking treadmill in my apartment because even though I'm a fat girl now, I've always been a cardio bunny. When I'm not wallowing in my own misery, I love to start my day by getting extremely sweaty with 45-60 minutes of cardio - and taking a brisk 3 mile walk in the evenings before dinner. I'm just thanking the powers that be that even though I'm the size that I am, my stamina hasn't decreased at all. I suppose I can thank years and years of very consistent exercise (pre-Covid) to thank for that. So here I am, promising myself to stay on track. I'm hoping to be back to 150 at the end of the year, and then down to 130 eventually. And I'm praying that I can get my partner on board too. Thanks for reading, if you did ;) [link] [comments] |
| The hunger pangs really go away! Posted: 06 Aug 2021 07:17 PM PDT I started trying to lose covid weight about 2 months ago. I'm down about 12 pounds, which is really nice. I mostly did this though dieting and some sporadic exercise. It was extremely hard the first 4-6 weeks because I'd get SOO hungry. By 11am and 5pm I'd just be starving. My TDEE is 1700 and I was eating at 1200 calories. I'd get hunger headaches and pangs some days when it was almost time for food. 4-6 weeks in I started not getting these pangs or headaches anymore!! Even at the same calorie budget with more exercise and weight loss of 11 lbs. So if you're thinking of giving up and you're at the start of your journey, please reconsider. At some point your brain gets used to the new calorie count. Not sure if my stomach has gotten smaller physically but I do feel like full much sooner. [link] [comments] |
| Posted: 06 Aug 2021 12:40 PM PDT I just hit a weight milestone! I'm at 180.2 and came home from college around 189! My ultimate goal is between 145-155 (I'll see where my body looks and feels the most comfortable). I got down to 170 last summer but gained it all back, and then some, at college. I'm looking forward to (hopefully) reaching another milestone before coming home for winter break since I'm making a point of staying diligent at school. It's really hard to take the first step. I get it. A few months ago, I was crying and shaming myself into believing I'll never look and feel how I wish. You can start today, now, and make the right decisions. Before you know it, you will reap the benefits and be inspired to do even more. Just wanted to share this with you all!😁 [link] [comments] |
| I’m in the 210s for the first time in forever! I feel so good about myself! Posted: 06 Aug 2021 09:53 AM PDT F47, 5'9", SW:293, CW:219, GW:165 As of this morning, my scale read 219.4, and that was with clothes on! I understand that there will be some backtracking as my weight fluctuates back and forth, but hey, we're in the neighborhood! I don't want to share specifics about my weight numbers with my family and friends because I suspect they don't realize how heavy I was number-wise and I don't think being 219 will be as big of a thing to them. But I'm so happy and I wanted to share with someone, so I thought I'd post here! Heck, I'm down like 75 pounds. My ultimate goal is 165 because that's a healthy BMI, by my intermediate goal is to get to 199 so I can ride horses again without hurting them. I'm within 20 pounds of doing it! This subreddit helps me so much. I'm inspired by all of your posts and I'm thrilled to have one of my own to share! [link] [comments] |
| Posted: 06 Aug 2021 03:45 PM PDT SW: 238 CW: 228 GW: 175 LTGW: 145 I've only told one person. I am down 10 lbs as of yesterday after working hard starting in May. I didn't starve myself, mostly just cut out red meat, i drink oat milk. I don't starve myself and with rice and fish i hardly really crave anything other than maybe the occasional chips. I don't really drink soda and i even stopped drinking seltzers. I drink premiere chocolate protein shakes after my workout and don't feel hungry and I feel incredibly proud and scared because I dont want to lose momentum. I'm learning the value of REAL rest days, not just ACR (Active rest days) but legit rest days with lots of water. I can do planks for a lot longer and I can feel the abs in my stomach growing and super excited. This side of reddit has been tremendous especially when i get tired of eating the same thing ! [link] [comments] |
| Posted: 06 Aug 2021 08:19 PM PDT Not much to say this go around; I was unfortunately sick this past week. I still made a point to go on walks though for fresh air and to keep myself moving. I have surprisingly lost approx 4 pounds which I honestly didnt expect at all. I haven't been really watching what I ate so while I didn't expect an extreme gain I wasn't expecting a dramatic loss either. Then again 4 pounds across 2 weeks isnt truly "dramatic"; but nonetheless with how I was going it remained pleasantly unexpected. There's definitely something to be said about the power of just moving. Something is always better than nothing. That said progress is progress. Here are my stats so far Measurements: Left arm: 12 (0) Right arm: 13.5 (+0.5) Across Chest: 38.25 (-0.5) Waist: 34 (-0.25) Hips: 42.5 (-2.25) Left thigh: 25.5 (+0.25) Right thigh: 25.5 (+0.25) Weight: 182.8 (-3.8 lbs) That's all for now. I've got a new weight set I'm hoping to start including in my workouts to gain more muscle! Here's hoping for the best! Best of luck! [link] [comments] |
| Posted: 06 Aug 2021 11:08 AM PDT GUYS! First off, hello! I made a post around two months ago about how I wanted to lose weight and overall become healthier before starting college. In late May of this year, I was trying on graduation dresses for my honors ceremony. Because of COVID-19, I couldn't try on potential dresses in the dressing room and was left to guess. I picked out this beautiful black dress and was pretty sure it would fit. Whenever I got home and tried it on, the zipper did not move an inch. I was devastated. Today, I decided to try on the dress just for the fun of it, not expecting it to move much. It fit PERFECTLY! I cannot tell you guys how happy and proud of myself I am. What a great surprise to end off the week!!! Just thought I'd share because despite not seeing progress in the mirror (you look at yourself every day so it's pretty hard to), I found that I had hit a huge milestone! Hope y'all have a great rest of your week :'-) [link] [comments] |
| I got called the “big one” and it bothered me. Posted: 06 Aug 2021 04:25 PM PDT I just needed to vent because it's been on my mind for a few days. Pretty much how it went down I was at hard summer, we had parked our car in a dirt lot a few miles away. my boyfriend was back at the car getting the phone and I was walking next to my sister who's about 5'2 110 pounds while I am 5'7 and easily 180. The guys directing traffic we're laughing and cat calling at my sister talking about all the glitter on her ass, we we're going to a rave so we had our asses out in crop tops. Some are gonna argue I was asking that kind of attention but Idgaf because it doesn't give them the right to harass regardless of what we were wearing . Then their attention turned to me when they said "i like the big one too, you're more my cup a tea, girl". I didn't respond I wish I would've told him to fuck off because It literally hurt my feelings so bad I should've made a point to let them know not to talk to strangers like that. But these were disgusting, dirty men directing parking for a rave so it shouldn't bother me that they said that considering the source but about a couple miles after that before we got inside I just busted out crying. I don't like being referred to as "big" even if it was supposed to come off as complimentary it was extremely hurtful and made me feel so uncomfortable. I've fluctuated a good 40 pounds in the last five years, sometimes I'm up sometimes I'm down. I try really hard to be active most days doing my spin bike and struggle with binge eating so it is a real sore subject for me. Even though I've gained I still wanna be able to look nice and feel sexy when I go out. I'm still trying to love myself at this new size. I wanna be able to wear what I wanna wear without being looked at as a "big" one. I have an amazing cute boyfriend who makes me feel sexy even when Im dirty and sweaty just done cleaning. It shouldn't matter what strangers think. I'm honestly really glad he wasn't there either and didn't hear it because based off his reaction when I was telling him about it, he probably would've went off. I know I shouldn't care about one shitty comment from one shitty person I just wish I would've stood up for myself in that moment and let them know it's not okay to fetishize someone's body type because that is just as insulting [link] [comments] |
| Growing up in the 90's added fuel to my fire of unhealthy habits and mentality. Posted: 06 Aug 2021 09:38 AM PDT TW: body dysmorphia, ED I recently read a Huffpost article about some 90s trends and culture that reminded me of my own experience. The piece was by Emily McCombs, called "A eulogy for the swimsuit dress, a plus size right of passage". https://www.huffpost.com/entry/plus-size-swimsuit-skirt-dress_l_610204b7e4b0d3b58979dbb2 I remember being a preteen and teenager with a constant struggle of weight. I had always been a chubbier kid, and when coming into that age of hyperfocus on ones looks and popularity, my underlying concern became an outright obsession. I remember those 5-7-9 stores, with the cute but skimpy outfits I could only dream of wearing. Those sizes seemed impossible for me to one day fit into. But the strappy tanks, corset like tops and short skirts were all the rage, and I peered into that aesthetic through the glass window every mall trip. I flipped through the Delia's catalog, running my hands over the cropped shirts with snarky one liners, or embroidered flowers on the middle. The snowboarding hats paired with skinny cargo pants, the plaid pleated skits and knee high socks...I can picture it all so well. I thought that these were the clothes cool girls wore, the ones who got the attention from the edgy boys I yearned after. I'd make a list of all the outfits I'd buy, if only I could fit into their sizes. Britney Spears and Paris Hilton were plastered all over TV and magazines usually wearing middrift shirts and low ride jeans, tanned and sleek. I envied how their hip bones jutted out below their pierced belly buttons and flat stomachs. I compared myself, hated myself, diet myself, fail myself, and repeat the process. At one point I did mage to lose some pounds in an unhealthy manner, and just the ability to squeeze into one lower size jeans I thought was worth my constant anger from hunger and fatigue. ( I Can't drink Crystal Light or eat anything slim fast based without gagging to this day) I based my worth on my weight, and found myself not speaking up for what I believed in, or doing the activities I loved, all to hide myself feeling so unworthy due to being the fat girl. I wouldn't attend swim parties or dances because that meant swimsuits and formal dresses, none which were pretty in my sizes. I remember that swim dress so well, I had a few. that was acceptable for my size to wear. As to not offend. I sometimes wonder if I had been born later, would my self image and relationship with food be a bit different. If curves and hips and butts were celebrated like today in a Kim Kardashian culture, would I find myself less self hating and yo yo dieting. I am not blaming the 90s for my problems, not at all, but for a young girl who had weight issues prior to, the culture of the 90s surely didn't help. As of today I am working on my health, and being the best version of myself I can be. I realize how unhealthy my mindset was, where my weight issues began, and combating that with realistic eating plans and exercise. I know now I will never be the 90s model of beauty I once saw portrayed, but I still struggle with the "standards" I grew up with at times. It's just so embedded. Edit: actually 90s/ early 2000s [link] [comments] |
| Well, three weeks of CICO and working out 5 days a week…. And I have lost exactly .7lbs Posted: 06 Aug 2021 10:36 AM PDT First time poster (31F). I know this is a problem that several others have had lately. Before you say "MuScLe WeIgHs MoRe ThAn FaT", my measurements haven't changed either. I've been doing so well. I have tripled my vegetable intake, eating clean protein (fish, chicken, OCCASIONAL red meat as a treat), and have completely removed sugar and alcohol. I've only had 3 days over the last three weeks where I missed my calorie goal (gotta treat yourself sometimes in moderation…). I'm eating 1400 calories +/- 100 calories. Getting at least 30 minutes of cardio and 30 minutes of weight training 4-5 days a week. I even had blood work done because I thought maybe it's my thyroid (it's not). CW: 199.3 / GW: 170 / 5'6 —- I know that GW seem high but the way my body is built, I look good 160-170. I have a wider frame and my weight is very evenly dispersed. I'm trying to focus on the fact that I do FEEL better. But I'm not going to lie, my only motivation is to not look like a whale. Sorry, more of a vent post than anything. This is so frustrating. [link] [comments] |
| 30 Day Accountability Challenge - Day 6 Posted: 06 Aug 2021 06:13 PM PDT Hello losers, We made it to Friday y'all! I hope you are feeling yourself, your oats, whatever you want to feel! Weigh in daily, enter in Libra & remove moral judgement/stigma/shame directed at yourself about it: Progress over perfection. Trying to unattach my self worth from the number on the scale. Whoosh stuck. Don't worry, I'll be sore again tomorrow & retain some of that sweet sweet water weight lols. A good reminder to not let the fluctuations get to you. 1800 calories (tracking in 5-day cycles, Friday/Saturday at maintenance): Yaaaaaasssss. Exercise 5 days a week: 30 minute stationary bike with arm reps mixed in & some stretching after. 6/6 days. Alone time to word vomit into journal: A little bit post workout. Tried out a little guided meditation to close out the sweating. Definitely not because I didn't want to get up from the yoga matt... Todays gratitude list: Today I'm grateful for being financially comfortable enough to order new athletic leggings (maybe the tiktok ones), the fact that I'm feeling like I should actually do some dance work outs (body confidence, what the hell is that ever) & my SO. Such a keeper that one. Express gratitude (verbally or through written communication): Will do this tonight. Your turn kids! Hit me up! [link] [comments] |
| Posted: 06 Aug 2021 09:04 PM PDT This may be more of a rant than anything... I didn't realize how much of a comfort eating has been for me. It's hitting me hard today. I'm about two-weeks into limiting my food, and I also started personal training 2-3 days a week. Today I'm off work so I'm just relaxing at home... Except I'm climbing the walls because there's chips and sweet bread and cinnamon rolls in the house (I don't do the grocery shopping, and yes I've asked if we can not have junk food around, but it's not an option apparently. Topic for another thread). I'm having regular meals so I'm not starving, and if I have to snack I am sticking to stuff like pickles and veggies and a HUGE glass of water. But I'm having a rough day mentally and I just want to watch tv and slowly work my way through a bag of chips. I'm just laying in bed now and have been for a while - I'm actually afraid that if I get up I will just find my way to the fridge and un-do all my efforts. I've been fine up until now, why is this suddenly so difficult? [link] [comments] |
| 1-year success story/some things I wish I knew early on Posted: 06 Aug 2021 04:39 PM PDT SW: 205ibs Current: 160ibs Goal:160-170ibs Male - 6 foot -21 years old I just got to the one-year mark from when I decided to stop being fat. Let me tell you now that I have been on both sides of the equation, do not think losing weight will make you happier. No one truly cares about your goals in life but you. Sure you will get some nice comments here and there but this will not magically change your life, but still do it because it does help you in health and confidence aspects. In my opinion, the first few months sucked the most. Going from 205 to 195 took a lot of adapting to do, mainly cutting out sugars. Once you get going it gets to be a game where you see results and feel good about yourself. I also would not count calories, I had much more success just being conscious about what I ate. Also, you may justify foods you do not need if you track calories. I would just look at nutrition labels and go from there. I also chose to use alcohol on the weekend as my cheat meal and pretty much never ate a real cheat meal. Working out 4-5 days a week will help maintain muscle (don't want to lose weight and be weaker), it is not worth it lol. Also please have a goal weight in mind and make it concrete you do not want to become too skinny, honestly may be looked down upon more than being fat. If you do want to put weight back on taking it slow is the move, I went from 2200 cal to 2250 to 2300, etc and now am at like 3300 cal. You will hear horror stories about yo-yo dieting and that is no Bueno. GOOD LUCK!!! [link] [comments] |
| Newbie saying hello and the start of the journey Posted: 07 Aug 2021 12:43 AM PDT Hi So I'm new to the subreddit and new to all of this. My dad was recently diagnosed with diabetes and I realised it's my wake up call you take my weight seriously and take weight loss seriously. I bought a steps tracker, I bought a scale, I bought a tape measure. I've downloaded my fitness pal to track calories. Because of my dad I've been doing research into bad carbs vs healthy ones. I've taken pictures (god that was hard) and measurements as a starting point. I've read the FAQ but this is more a post of saying 'this is my starting point' rather than asking for advice or anything. So here it goes with stats and a basic history. 28F 5'7" SW 139.1kg/ 307lbs GW 62kg/136lbs HW 142.8kg I was diagnosed with binge eating disorder about 3 years ago but I never really did anything about it and it continues to be a massive hurdle that I need to start to overcome now. I've known I've needed to lose weight for like 10 years but never started. Or it was the whole 'start Monday........next Monday.....after Christmas......after easter' etc and suddenly it's been a year or two and still haven't started. But yeah, my dad was diagnosed with diabetes and it has come as a massive shock that has sort of acted as the boot up my ass to start taking this seriously. But today is the first day I've taken measurements (yay to Amazon for 2 day delivery) And I can start tracking my weight daily from now on. That's basically it. I just wanted to document the start of this [link] [comments] |
| Posted: 06 Aug 2021 07:41 AM PDT This is my first time posting here, and I'm not sure what to say. I just broke 400 lbs this morning. When I was 18-19 I was around 200lb, so sure, I've never been a skinny guy but things are way out of hand now. Basic tasks are getting difficult. I find myself out of breath doing laundry or taking out the trash. I'm addicted to any manner of addiction there is; Alcohol, Food, Nicotine. My health is rapidly failing and I feel like I'm making this post almost as a cry for help. If there is anyone out there who has been in a similar situation I would like to hear your story. Any advice for someone who is morbidly obese and needs a rapid lifestyle change, or any words of encouragement are greatly appreciated. I need to lose it fast or I fear I might not be here much longer due to deteriorating health. I want my old life back, so anything is helpful. Thank you all! [link] [comments] |
| Posted: 06 Aug 2021 10:46 PM PDT [M] ... I have a lot of butt and thigh fat but I'm in good shape everywhere else. I understand spot reduction isn't a thing and I have to lose fat everywhere and stuff. I'm ready to go into caloric deficit, but should I keep doing squats, lunges, deadlifts? I read somewhere that those should be avoided but somewhere else said they should be done. I'm anyways working out other parts of my body but should I still do squats and stuff? Keep in mind I'm a beginner, who has just been very sporty since childhood. I haven't tapped into my 'beginner gains' to yet. I'm not bulky by any standard. Probably on the skinny side but more than becoming ripped, I want to become proportional. [link] [comments] |
| Difficulty tracking calories while in the army Posted: 06 Aug 2021 10:27 PM PDT Hi everyone! My problem may be somewhat unusual for the rest of the world but i still hope i can get some advice. I am israeli, meaning that i am currently doing my mandatory military service. I, like most people, am in a none combat role (a so-called "jobnik"), which means i am on base 5 days a week and at home for weekends. The problem comes with trying to lose weight or track calories in this setting- it's a well known fact that most people gain weight during military service. You tend to move less and get less exercise, you tend to eat more random food due to boredom or because people who serve with you are doing it or buying food for everyone, etc. However , The biggest problem is obviously that you no longer have control of what is avalable to eat- since you dont bring your own food, for 3 meals a day 5 days a week you are eating what is avalable there. Even if i try to eat the healthier options i have no idea how many calories anything contains and i don't have the ability to weigh anything making the whole process very frustrating. So far i tried sort of estimating amounts based on past expirience but clearly i am no good at estimating since it has not worked. I tried skipping lunch and eating breakfast and dinner since these meals are usually stuff that is easier to track (like eggs for example) rather than some cooked meal that i have no idea what it contains. I also tried doing 1 meal a day for a short time but i am having a hard time with that. I tried overestmating the calories of everything intentionally but that leaves me so hungry that i end up eating in the evening since i probably ended up eating too little for even a diet. So far, nothing has worked. Do you have any suggestions for me? [link] [comments] |
| How can I plan to make sure I don’t eat over my calories or binge for the day if I’m eating out? Posted: 06 Aug 2021 07:59 PM PDT So I plan to hangout with my friend tomorrow at the pool. Anyways, we usually will go out to eat at 'On The Border'. Calories are high especially with the yummy chips and salsa, which I will skip as of lately. Anyways, since on my weight loss journey there is a meal that is the lowest one there and is actually super good (520-530 can't remember atm). But anyways, my calorie limit for the day is 1700. What are some good breakfast, snack, and dinner ideas that way I don't binge or go over my calorie limits. I understand that going over is fine with things in moderations. But rn I've had two binges this week and don't want to keep going back and forth. I've been really happy about my strength training/HIIT workouts. Thank you! [link] [comments] |
| Exercise bike milestone: 500kcal in 1hr (-15lbs in 3 months) Posted: 06 Aug 2021 02:59 PM PDT The Bike Milestone I know exercise bikes probably overcount kcals burned, but this summer I worked my way up from (what was displayed as) 150kcals in 20 minutes to today's milestone of 500kcals in 1hr. I did using the "intervals" feature on the bike and typically adding 3 minutes each time I went to work out, with about 20-25 workouts/month. I found that adding time was easier than increasing the resistance, although eventually I did increase the resistance slightly. Most of the time it wasn't too tough to go the extra few minutes. :) The Weight-Loss (172 to 157) I also managed to lose 15 pounds from my pandemic-high in late April, when I got the vaccine and felt more comfortable going outside and to the gym. I also decided to cut my caloric intake, and I did this by finding a homemade meal that's low in kcal that I can eat over and over without getting tired of it. For me that's a bean/rice/cheese burrito, two per day, reducing portions as needed. Tips that I picked up from reading threads from this sub
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| Struggling with weight loss from a new perspective... Posted: 06 Aug 2021 10:23 AM PDT I should say that I have always struggled with my weight but really for many years I just did not care. Which is detrimental in its own way, isn't it? About five years ago I made my first ever effort to start correcting some of my ingrained bad behaviors around food and alcohol, with varying degrees of success. I'm a 5'3" woman and my top weight was measured at 298lbs (during a doctor's visit) but I'm sure I was up in the 300s at some point. I wrestled my way down into the 250s and it was a fight to get there. Then I started to feel pain, pain like I'd never experienced in my entire life, the kind of pain that locks you down into yourself like a prisoner. My appetite was obliterated and I lost 30lbs in a month. Yup, you guessed it – Stage IV Cancer! During treatment I did pretty well (they want you to maintain weight) - got down to 212lbs but really stayed somewhere near 225lbs throughout surgeries and chemo. I made it out the other side of active treatment in January 2020. I'd like to tell you I was elated that I survived but in truth I was a washed-out exhausted mess. I was just starting to hobble my weak ass out into the sun again when covid hit. Well, shitballs. I'm locked down at home and cancel all my "you somehow survived" trips that I'd planned for the year. I'll tell you what I did get back during lockdown – my appetite and my tastebuds. I'd lost both and never thought to see them again but they were back baby! I gained the Covid 50 and didn't really notice until my first day going back in the office at work and I couldn't wear ANYTHING (pants? No, button-ups? No way, work shoes? ouch). Well dammit, I was back at 275. I was also now experiencing severe arthritic joint pain over my entire body as a side effect of the medicine I take to keep my cancer in check. I know that my weight is exacerbating this condition too. This is where the new struggle begins because the absolute second I lose any weight the entirety of my being hits panic mode and thinks we are dying again. That took me a while to figure out but once I did it was like a giant cartoon lightbulb popped on over my head. I definitely should have gone to counseling at this point but I have deep doctor fatigue and am not at all interested in having to be vulnerable with yet another medical professional. So I start having serious talks with myself about what I am choosing to do. Eating right and taking long walks (which are now jogs) is a choice I am making. I am picking this and working towards this and it is NOT cancer again. This mostly works but the checkups and CTs every three months also help. It apparently takes a village to reassure my subconscious. This has been a real battle because it has not eased. I must continually have this stream of consciousness narrative with myself especially if I feel a twinge of any sort of non-arthritic pain anywhere in my body. Maybe this is how I am supposed to have always been versus ignoring myself for years on end? I think I'd eventually like to compromise and settle somewhere more towards the middle. My first goal was to get back to chemo weight at 225lbs and I am closing in on it at 237lbs right now. Almost all of my arthritic symptoms have cleared up with the weight loss and doing lots of stretchy yoga. It's good, I tell myself. You are on your way, I reassure. I feel small stirrings of excitement to be getting down below 225lbs on a health journey versus a death spiral. It's a litany I repeat internally. Cancer relapse looms somewhere on another horizon but not yet…not yet. Thank you for reading, friends. [link] [comments] |
| Daily Q&A Post for Saturday, 07 August 2021 - No question too small! Posted: 06 Aug 2021 10:31 PM PDT Got a question? We've got answers! Do you have question but don't want to make a whole post? That's fine. Ask right here! What is on your mind? Everyone is welcome to ask questions or provide answers. No question is too minor or small. TIPS: * Include your stats if appropriate/relevant (or better yet, update your flair!) * Check the FAQ and other resources in the sidebar! [link] [comments] |
| Posted: 06 Aug 2021 06:09 PM PDT I exercise in phases which really messes me up because I will be doing so great and then I just lose all discipline I slowly learned. All my hard work goes down the drain day by day which causes me to go back into old eating habits and this process just keeps continuing. I've learned over the years to be kind with myself and know that it's okay, things happen. But it's been years and I'm not where I want to be. Im asking the people that reach their goals, how? How do you deal with the bad days without being set back? How do you keep up the consistency? I know no one is perfect and you just have to bounce back when you fail but why do I kept failing? And even then, I hear of people having bad days but they still reach their goals. I just can't seem to reach mine. On the days you feel like over eating and not exercising what do you do? How do you fight that urge in your brain? Its so hard sometimes and it stresses me out. I don't know, maybe the reason I'm not reaching my goals is because I want it so bad. Maybe I'm stressing myself too much. I feel like I've just been at a standstill for months and it's really hard. [link] [comments] |
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