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    Weight loss: Next month will be 1 year since I started losing weight and this is what I've learned

    Weight loss: Next month will be 1 year since I started losing weight and this is what I've learned


    Next month will be 1 year since I started losing weight and this is what I've learned

    Posted: 24 Jun 2020 11:19 AM PDT

    On July 31st, 2019, I started getting serious about losing weight. I knew it was going to be hard because:

    1. I live with both my parents as my moms stay at home caregiver. They never taught me how to eat healthy and have always bought junk food all my life and they refuse to support a healthier lifestyle.
    2. I have severe Bi-Polar depression that I haven't been able to get under control because I've been so busy with taking care of other people.
    3. I have an emotional attachment to food and tell myself the only happiness I have left in the world is food.

    The scale read 375lbs, and I was really scared because I knew if I reached 400lbs, I'd give up entirely. I would see no hope left within myself to change. Around this time, it had been 8 years since I'd been to a doctor. I was afraid of diabetes, among other health issues due to weight and lack of mobility. Afraid of what I'd find, I never went. Along with not visiting the doctor because of being too afraid, I had recently visited an eye care center to get a prescription filled and they said the pressure in my eyes was alarming. I don't recall the numbers but I knew it wasn't good.

    So here I was at 375lbs. Hadn't been to a doctor in forever with who knows what untreated health problems along with critical eye pressure. I felt sick all the time. Never had energy for anything. I felt hopeless. I used my depression, how my family shops, how food is my only happiness, how I had no support system etc, as excuses as to why I needed to eat the foods I was eating. It's hard for anyone to lose weight when they feel like they aren't even worth losing weight to begin with. When they feel like their life means so little that there's no point in changing. I was tired of feeling this way. I was tired of being tired all the time.

    I've learned through this year that I will struggle for the rest of my life. Though counting calories has become less of a burden and more routine for me, I will always have days where I just don't want to do it. I will have days where I completely give in, lose my strength. Some days I just agree with the excuses I try so hard to fight against. Throughout this year, I have finally visited a doctor. I learned that no, I do not have diabetes. This was...a fantastic relief. I have also learned further down into the year that my eye pressure had started to normalize, was no longer alarming. I became more mobile. My clothes fit better. I smile more. I joined a gym! I became my own hero. I became my own support system.

    I felt like I was split into two different people, one being the girl who hated herself and didn't care, and one being the girl who wanted to live, to be healthy. Who wanted to care. I challenge myself every day, and as I look back on this year I have realized that out of all of these 365 days, I've won against myself probably 340 of those days. Considering just 2 years ago I lost to myself every single one of those 365 days, I'm doing pretty damn good.

    SW: 375.6lbs

    CW: 291lbs. (For the first time since I was 14 years old, I am finally out of the 300's)

    Total weight lost: 84.6lbs

    CICO/Light exercise

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    Went from where’s the snacks to he’s a snack ������

    Posted: 24 Jun 2020 07:47 AM PDT

    before and after

    Hey guys, first time posting!

    I am a 5'11 male and I recently hit the 40 pound lost mark! I started at 325 and my current weight is 285. I would like to get to around 220, my old football playing weight haha.

    My journey kind of began with a drinking problem. I began drinking out of control, which led to a bad diet, mental problems and general lack of motivation. I decided last November to quit drinking and it was the best decision of my life. I haven't had a drink since and slowly decided to work on other aspects of my life.

    I went to therapy to deal with my emotions, and I went on a diet to help with the weight loss. I wouldn't so much call it a diet as much as a lifestyle change. I've done fad diets before that worked, but I ended up gaining it all back. My goal now is to lose the weight slowly but change the way I eat forever.

    I started with just changing out things that I eat and going for a mile walk once a day. Now I'm in the gym everyday and trying to eat clean everyday. I don't always succeed but I've learned to live with my mistakes and look forward to tomorrow's opportunities. Anyways this journey has been so motivating and I really think I can do anything haha.

    Edit: link doesn't seem to be working anymore..here's the new one before and after

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    Best non-scale victory yet

    Posted: 24 Jun 2020 07:09 PM PDT

    I've been feeling rather disappointed in my perceived lack of change in my thighs since losing 55lbs. My waist, arms, face, etc. have all shrunk dramatically, but my legs still feel huge to me.

    But today I was weeding our garden (standing in a squat and leaning over) and my husband came out and was like "wow! With you standing like that I can see the muscles in your thighs bulging a lot! They look awesome!"

    Totally made my whole day, and has given me a new perspective on my thighs. They are strong and full of muscle, and I can stand in a squat to weed our garden for many minutes straight, something I never could do before.

    It made me realize that running and doing squats and wall sits and all the other things that I didn't always love were making a difference, even when I felt like they weren't.

    When you're feeling discouraged (or that damn dysmorphia is kicking in), don't forget that we are our own worst critics, and every good choice you've made has had a positive impact on your body.

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    My new system is working! [28F, 5'8"]

    Posted: 24 Jun 2020 12:52 PM PDT

    TLDR - this is what has been helping keep me motivated

    So I hit my highest ever recorded weight last month clocking in at 199.5lbs. I forced myself to step on the scale after several weeks of being lazy and binge eating post-breakup. The fact that I was so dangerously close to surpassing the 200lb mark shook me. It was good though, it was the kick in the pants I needed to get started.

    I've done the weight loss thing before (you can see my progress pic graveyard in my post history) with keto and dropped down to the mid 160's, but that wasn't quite sustainable and once I transitioned off of that diet the weight crept back up. So this time around it's CICO all the way! Tracking dutifully and more exercise is what's physically going to get me there, but as many of you know, weight loss is also a real mental challenge. I needed some strategy to encourage and maintain my motivation level to ensure I actually hit the 150lb goal weight ive been striving towards (albeit intermittently) for YEARS.

    I didn't exactly reinvent the wheel or anything. I just sat down and created a breakdown of the 50lbs I needed to shed, dividing it into 10lb goals. I opened up my notepad app and recorded my current stats and a photo. I used the checklist feature to create boxes to tick off for every 10lbs I dropped, along with a little motivational message about the weight of a household object equal to that of the weight I had lost so far, and a non-food related "prize" that I could treat myself too once I reached that point. An important point is that I didn't set any time limits on myself. I've shot myself in the foot before by imposing a "must weigh X by" date and winding up disappointed if I don't make it. It takes as long as it takes, just gotta keep working on checking those boxes.

    It may seem a little silly and totally simple, but it's working! I hit my first checkbox today, a little over a month in. And I'm still really psyched to keep going until I finally reach my goal. I don't usually write posts on Reddit but I wanted to share with this community in case this strategy might help somebody else. I've included an example of my first few goals, I'm happy to post them all if people are interested!

    Edit: here's the link to rest of the goals :) http://imgur.com/gallery/26TL2ER

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    I almost made myself vomit

    Posted: 24 Jun 2020 10:05 PM PDT

    [14F] Today I did something I thought I would never do. I had a couple snacks after dinner, when usually I have nothing. Afterwards I was reading and suddenly realized I had that uncomfortable feeling when you've eaten too much. I thought to myself, maybe I'll just make myself vomit, then I can get all these extra calories out of me and then I won't have gone over my deficit. I realized that thought process was associated with bulimia, and that actually scared me. I know people and have read the stories of those who have had a mental illness associated with their body/eating, and I told myself I cannot do that, and that I have to simply hold myself accountable for what I eat, and make an effort to do better tomorrow, because there is nothing I can do about it now.

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    REALLY STARTING TO BELIEVE I CAN LOSE 100+ POUNDS / 25% progress / 30 days of logins at MFP

    Posted: 24 Jun 2020 12:45 PM PDT

    I am pleasantly surprised at my own success. Turns out the daily entry of what I eat--the closer to contemporaneous the better--has served me very well. And, it turns out the wisdom of this crowd has been invaluable. Early on someone explained put your calories in before you consume them - which is a great strategy. Another person expressed that one cannot "outrun their own spoon."

    I have been consistent with 20-30 minutes of exercise (TRX) 5-6/7 days. This has been terrific. With calories hovering around 1,800 per day -- and accounting or a 4,500 cheat day, and a few 2700 calorie days -- taught me that you can cheat and still lose. It's the law of large numbers that matters, rather than the exceptions along the way.

    I've tracked my caloric intake for the past 30 days. I use trendweight which plots the weighted average through this process. This is very helpful whenever I have a cheat day -- I simply focus on the trend rather than an actual number. It's also very helpful psychologically to recognize one bad day (either oddly high weight, or extra calories) doesn't ruin the trend.

    I've also noticed my heart rate is dropping, I have greater flexibility, I get to my shoes easier, and life is slowly but steadily getting better. I'm very happy with my progress. This community has been a great help for that -- and I thank you a great deal.

    I've gone from 361 or so to around 335 (high point to low point, not weighted averages) -- but dropping 25 pounds without going through huge amounts of exercise has been very inspiring for me. Turns out it is easier to control weight through intake then output. (I'm slightly concerned that body fat has risen by 2-3% and lean mass has dropped 4-5 pounds over past month -- but given that I'm between 38-41% body fat, I think I just have to endure the numbers from my electronic scale, as the loss must come from fat at some point -- and yes, i'm eating between 0.7 and 1.0 grams of protein per pound of lean mass (about 210 pounds).

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    Mental win + face gains = much happier gal

    Posted: 24 Jun 2020 07:40 PM PDT

    I knew tracking my kcals and weight was risky business... after struggling with disordered eating when I was younger, I knew the risks to my daft little brain and yet here I am getting obsessed and frustrated with the numbers.

    I've decided to cut myself some slack, look at these Face gains, The progress is right there so why do I beat myself up for things that don't really matter?? Why am I hyper focused on my kcals and macros when I know it makes my brain break a little bit??

    If any of my friends were this harsh on themselves and got frustrated this easily, I'd lovingly give them a kick up the arse and tell them to be kinder to themselves, so that's what I'm doing: progress is progress.

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    Is it normal to feel guilt while losing weight?

    Posted: 24 Jun 2020 08:50 PM PDT

    I'm 29F 5'6 220 lbs. SW 264. I've lost quite a bit of weight but still not where I want to be. As I see my body change, and reap the benefits of living a healthier lifestyle, I'm starting to feel a lot of guilt and frustration with myself. I'm just really upset that it took me 10+ years to finally get my life together and lose the weight. I'm so frustrated and full of guilt. I'm scared that I won't like my body once I'm at my goal weight. Ie loose skin. I'm taking all the preventive steps to avoid it as much as possible.

    I'm having a really hard time letting go of these feelings and fears. Is this normal? Have others gone through these emotions? If so, how did you overcome them?

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    A Cautionary Tale, to the tune of "I've Got A Lovely Bunch of Coconuts.

    Posted: 25 Jun 2020 12:43 AM PDT

    Sing with me!

    I've got a vitamin deficiency, de de de de Look at how my hair is falling out, dum dum dum dum Big clumps, small clumps, some the size of your hand!

    I promise I am not being flippant. I started my weight loss journey with the approval of my GP. Ive been doing CICO since January. I've been focusing on my macros and eating as many nutrient rich foods as I can within my calorie allowance which is 1,200kcal and up to 1,500 on days that I do cardio. I have also been taking a multi vitamin. I do, however, have a sensitivity to vitamin A and cannot take supplements for that and have to watch my intake.

    However over the last two weeks my hair has started falling out. I've put a link in the comments. I had an appointment yesterday and the GP expects it is a vitamin deficiency. Vitamin A, actually. I had bloods taken (a few days for results), and he suggested that I stick with what I'm doing until we know the results. If it turns out to be vitamin A I have a few specialists I need to consult before I can purposefully add any kind of supplement to my diet.

    The moral of my story? Listen to your body!!! You might think you're doing everything right. You may be working closely with a health professional. You may be really chuffed with your progress. But if your hair is falling out, or your energy levels tank, or something else Red Flag-y happens, have it checked out. There's only one you, be kind to yourself.

    Lots of love!

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    I just bent down and ripped my jeans

    Posted: 24 Jun 2020 09:24 AM PDT

    IN THE KNEE. OOOH BOY

    I've ripped my jeans before in MANY (too many) embarrassing situations. Sitting down in a chair, the back seam splits. Posing for a photo, my thighs burst out and tear from the crotch to the leg. I could go on but it's fairly humiliating. I know it happens to lots of people, but when your jeans tear horribly as you're giving a presentation at the front of your grade 11 class, it sticks with you.

    But just a few minutes ago my jeans ripped IN THE KNEE. These are second-hand jeans I had (not actual denim) and I've been wearing them for the last few months because they finally fit me. They're in good condition but are worn out. I was running up some stairs and felt the fabric rip somewhere and quickly found a washroom to investigate.

    The knee blew out. That's it. The inner-thigh portion of the jean is fine. The butt portion of the jean is fine. Everywhere I'm scared of ripping is fine! But I just lifted my leg too fast/high and I ripped the KNEE. I feel like a kid again. I can't believe it. And now that I'm looking at these pants more closely, they're almost too big for me!

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    How do you stay committed to weight loss when you're depressed?

    Posted: 24 Jun 2020 11:40 AM PDT

    How do you stay committed to weight loss when you're depressed?

    Weight loss has always been a challenge for me. I read a lot about staying focused and committed on the journey no matter how hard it gets, but sadly when my depression flares up it's really hard to keep this focus. I end up lying in bed for hours a day and having a bad binge eating problem doesn't do me any favours. I usually give up when I'm depressed and have no desire to eat healthy and just binge on any processed food I can get my hands on. It's common knowledge that depression affects your brain, but how do you escape from the negative thoughts and the voice saying you will never achieve your goal?

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    I made it to onederland and all it took was a pandemic

    Posted: 24 Jun 2020 02:18 PM PDT

    I'm 35M, 5'6", and finally saw a number starting with a 1 on the scale.

    My weight loss journey started on new years day 2018. I realized I was the heaviest I had ever been at 283 and like every year, I resolved to lose weight. I set my 2018 goal to lose 100 lbs. I failed miserably and only lost about 65, but gained a lot of good habits and kept going, losing some weight gradually. I hit my previous lowest at 203 in Sept 2019 and then gained back about 15 lbs over the holidays and the beginning of this year, putting me at 217 at the start of the pandemic.

    When the pandemic hit, I adopted a dog, switched to doing almost all of my own cooking (from about 75% before), and tried to keep walking and biking a lot without the excuse of being able to bike to work. I used to do one hike of 25-45 minutes every day and now I'm doing 2 hikes with the dog for about 30 mins each day, so my walking has increased a bit. I used to bike to work 13-20 miles RT 2-3 days a week and I've been trying to keep up equivalent rides while working from home. I've been cooking multiple times a week and getting some CSA farm boxes to encourage me to use more veggies. I've been gradually dropping pounds over the past 3 months and hit a new all-time low of 199.6 today. I haven't been under 200 lbs since about 2005. It's just a number, but it's been my intermediate goal to get below 200 for a while. Next goal is to get down to 183 to hit that -100 mark I aimed for a couple years ago and then beyond that, get to a more healthy weight.

    My strategy has primarily been CICO and meal prep, plus a bit of exercise. I aim for prepping 500 calorie meals for lunches and dinners and about 100-200 for breakfast; this allows a bit of leeway for snacks or drinks while still targeting 1500 calories.

    One trick is that when I cook, I make whatever I want and fill in all the calories to myfitnesspal, then I divide it into as many portions as necessary for them to be about 500 calories. If I'm making something that I expect to be 4 portions and I end up closer to 2500 calories, I have to divide it into 5 portions and eat less of it. This also helps me think about ingredients I put in and whether I really need 2 Tbsp of oil vs 1. I get bored of the same dish after more than a couple times in a row, so I try to prep 3-5 portions and stagger meals so I don't have to eat the same thing multiple times in a row.

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    M30, stretch marks are pretty severe and putting a hold on a lot of my life.

    Posted: 24 Jun 2020 09:08 PM PDT

    I put on a lot of weight in the last few years following a bereavement. I have stretch marks that are really noticeable and they cover both sides of my belly and sides, with some down to the upper part of my crotch. I haven't been swimming or taken my shirt off in front of anyone in 4 years because I'm so self conscious about them, and it's stopped me pursuing relationships, going on certain holidays with friends, and just generally hasn't been great.

    I used to be really physically fit but started smoking, heavy drinking and overeating at the same time whilst giving no fucks about my own health and wellbeing. It was a long destructive period in my life. I now feel like I've brought about some irreversible damage to myself. I've sabotaged relationships/casual encounters for feeling I'd be punching above my weight class (obviously not literally) where I didn't before, and a fear of just the reaction to it or the subsequent rumour mill of being the guy with the stretch marks.

    I'm fairly confident I can lose the weight again on a practical level over a year or so, but honestly I want to know what my options are to remove these scars. Knowing that they're still there still has me in a relatively bad place. I'm based in the UK if that helps, and I've considered saving to pay for treatment but I just want to know what realistically might work, what (if anything) actually works on scarring or if its mostly just a myth that they can be removed at all. Fear of not being able to afford any resolution to scarring also has me down, and I've no idea what happens to all this loose skin if I can't afford to remove it.

    Open to suggestions, advice or discussion if anyone has any kind of knowledge on the topic.

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    [Challenge] European Accountability Challenge: June 25th, 2020

    Posted: 24 Jun 2020 09:51 PM PDT

    Hi team Euro accountability, I hope you're all well!

    For anyone new who wants to join today, this is a daily post where you can track your goals, keep yourself accountable, get support and have a chat with friendly people at times that are convenient for European time zones. Check-in daily, weekly, or whatever works best for you. It's never the wrong time to join! Anyone and everyone are welcome! Tell us about yourself and let's continue supporting each other.

    Let us know how your day is going, or, if you're checking in early, how your yesterday went!

    Share your victories, rants, problems, NSVs, SVs, we are here!

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    Spent 2 nights at a hotel w/ reallylimited food choice but didn’t get off track

    Posted: 25 Jun 2020 12:06 AM PDT

    We were only able to order from restaurants, and in the mornings I only had liquor store snacks available, and I had no choice because if I don't eat breakfast I do not feel well. I think I at a danish and a liquor store banana nut bread one morning, both terrible CICO foods. Totally 900 calories for a frikkin breakfast instead of my usual instant grits with 2% milk at 290 calories. I think I probably ate reasonably for the rest of the day but wasn't able to even come close to tracking or counting calories.

    Also didn't have my scale with me.

    Anyway, coming back home after three days, my weight obviously didn't go up, but it also didn't go down! It's been a couple of days and I'm back on track.

    Thanks /r/loseit friends, you rock. Just wanted to share.

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    It feels like sugar is worse than alcohol for me... :/

    Posted: 25 Jun 2020 01:09 AM PDT

    Is it just me or can sugar be much worse than alcohol? I remember drinking alcohol at an office party and driving home after sobering up (I know not safe regardless ~ but have swore off alcohol since last year for anyone concerned) and it was fine, I was functioning properly, I had full control... but I ate this huge rice crispy treat another day and I almost fell a sleep during a meeting, even though I was feeling fresh as a daisy before and had a full night's rest. And driving home that day, I felt less in control and had a huge headache. I felt like I was more likely to crash my car that day than when I was driving after the office party.

    This has been a constant thing, where sugar really affects me negatively but alcohol not so much; I rarely get hungover the next morning mainly because I make sure to chug water before and after but with sugar I feel god awful and for the next few hours I know I won't be able to think straight... Alcohol just ends up being an excuse to do crazy things lol.

    Both definitely add to the lbs... I am currently trying to skip sugar for healthier alternatives.

    Anyone else relate/know why this is?

    PS I have the same reaction (to a lesser extreme) with highly processed carbs as I do with sugar

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    SV/NSV Feats of the Day - Thursday, 25 June 2020: Today, I conquered!

    Posted: 25 Jun 2020 01:08 AM PDT

    The habit of persistence is the habit of victory!

    Celebrating something great? Scale Victory, Non-Scale Victory, Progress, Milestones -- this is the place! Big or small, long or short, please post here and help us focus all of today's awesomeness into an inspiring and informative mega-dose of greatness! (Details are appreciated!! How are you losing your weight?)

    • Did you just change your flair? pass a milestone? reach a goal?
    • Did you log for an entire week? or year?
    • Did you take the stairs? walk a mile? jog for 3? set a new personal record?
    • Fit into your old pair of jeans? throw away your fat clothes? fit into your college outfit?

    Post it here! This is the new, improved place for recording your acts of awesomeness!

    Due to space limitations, this may be an announcement (sticky) only occasionally. Please find it daily and keep it the hottest thing on /r/loseit!


    On reddit your vote means, "I found this interesting!" Help us make this daily post the most read, most used, most interesting post on /r/loseit by reading, commenting, and participating often!


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    Day 0: 28F, 5’3”, 164lbs - goal weight 150lbs by 8th Sept 2020 (first wedding anniversary) ����

    Posted: 24 Jun 2020 02:46 PM PDT

    (ETA Day 0 body shots )

    My history - I've been unhappy with my weight and body, in varying degrees, for the past 20 years. I started gaining weight rapidly from around 8 years old, and hit my heaviest at 18/19 years old - 175lbs. I hated any form of exercise, ate junk, and wasn't looking after myself. In my first two years of uni, I suddenly discovered cardio, and dropped 21lbs. Then in my third year, I discovered calorie counting, and eventually bulimia. I got down to around 130lbs, my period stopped, I was running until I gave myself shin splints so bad I walked with a pronounced limp, and then swimming when I was banned from running for 2 weeks. Around the time the bulimia set in, I met the man who became my husband. He's been amazingly supportive throughout all the issues I've had with food, diet, exercise and body image - despite being somebody who had an extremely fast metabolism and has never really had to worry about his weight. While the actual vomiting phase only lasted around six months actively, the mental scars remained and it has taken a lot of therapy and introspection to grow where I am now. I also see a personal trainer and do intermittent fasting (14:10), which has radically altered my relationship with food and my body.

    I'm also on escitalopram (Lexapro in the States) for depression and anxiety. I was resistant to going on meds for a looooong time because I was convinced I would gain weight. I started on 5mg and saw no weight gain; went up to 10mg after a panic attack at work in Feb 2018 (toxic job where I had major performance issues) and saw no weight gain; and then, just before Christmas 2018 (4 months into new dreamy job) I was having a rough time with my anxiety and decided to up to 20mg, the max dose. For a period before my wedding, I dropped back down to 10mg because I was gaining weight (up to 156lbs) and worried about my dress fitting, but I've gone back up to 20mg as of early 2020. I'm still not sure if my meds are related to my weight gain.

    By the time I got married, I was around 150lbs. We had the wedding, an amazing honeymoon, Christmas, New Year, our respective birthdays, everything was great. I was 154lbs, heavier than I'd like to be but feeling good in myself, I was hitting PBs with lifting in the gym, I was going to spin classes twice a week, I felt good.

    Then lockdown hit. I've been paranoid about gaining weight - I always am, because I do not particularly like my body under any circumstances, but my clothes still fit. Or so I thought. Over the past couple of weeks, I've noticed certain items getting tighter. My belly (where most of my weight sits) feels bigger. I talked to my PT about it yesterday, and she suggested calorie counting, but because of my history with disordered eating, I'm really reluctant to do that - it takes a lot of mental energy that I'm just not willing to use any more as I'd rather expend it on other things. But today, as I shifted repeatedly around the room to find a comfortable position that would ease the ace in my legs as I worked, and kept sneaking glances down at my stomach, I figured I needed to do something. I have a set of scales from when I was obsessed with weighing myself, I hadn't used them in so long the battery was dead. I found one, and stepped on so I could know what I was dealing with.

    So here I am, at 140lbs - the heaviest I've been in 10 years. It feels shitty. I'm embarrassed and angry and disappointed in myself for letting it get this bad again. I'm mad that I allowed myself to get comfortable. My mental health is so, so much better, but the sacrifice is my body. That scares me so much, the idea that I can be fat, or happy, but not both. I also kind of realised a long time ago that I will never, ever be happy with my body - I feel a deep sense of injustice that I got the one I got. I know I'm lucky to be healthy and able-bodied, but I feel so weighed down by this thick belt of fat that just hangs around my midsection no matter how much I torture myself.

    I'm currently a UK size 14 despite all the weight, but I fear I'm creeping back up to a 16, which is where I was at my heaviest. My dream is to be a UK size 10, but I've sort of accepted that with my frame and the way my body stores fat and functions, that won't happen. Even at my very lightest (around 126lbs, when I started the MA I eventually dropped out of after a severe depressive spiral) I was still a 12, and my periods also stopped - so I know that I'm just not supposed to be that light.

    So now I know where I am, I've come up with a plan. I do have weights at home, but lockdown has seriously affected my mindset when it comes to working out. The gym is kind of my happy place, and working out in my cramped and stuffy spare room isn't really the same. But I can make excuses and stay the same/keep getting better, or I can try to make a change. So, to keep myself accountable, here are the things I am going to change:

    • 15 hour fasts (up from 14) • Eat earlier in the evenings (we've gotten into the habit of eating around 9pm, which throws out my fasting for the next day) • More lean protein (chicken, lean steak, salmon - Husband is pescatarian so I have a tendency to rely on starchy protein sources, I am going to change this) • Pasta max once a week (we've been having it SO MUCH and I know carbs make me bloat) • x1 sweet/dessert per week (I've gotten into the habit of eating dark chocolate every day to "curb sweet cravings" - PSA, does not work) • x3 max alcoholic drinks a week • x1 max eating out a week (easy at the moment!) • Increase fresh fruit and veg intake (WFH this has dropped off so much) • Better food prep for weekends (always when I fall off the wagon) • Occasionally prep own evening meals (Husband and I always have the same thing and I think I need to change this) • Hit 10,000 steps/day (lockdown and the summer heat/humidity in the UK has made me SO bad with this) • x2-3 weights sessions per week • Weekly weigh-ins to keep on track • Better sleeping habits (WFH means I now stay up later and struggle to get up even more than I already did; I am so tired and achey all the time)

    So there you have it. I'm planning to post here weekly to keep myself accountable, as it's hard to talk to friends about it, and Husband tries but doesn't really understand. Hope to get to know you guys a little better!

    TL;DR: 28F in UK with history of significant weight loss and ED, gained most of the weight back, looking to drop a stone by first wedding anniversary in September.

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    Self control is a muscle too!

    Posted: 24 Jun 2020 03:39 PM PDT

    Like many on this sub, I've struggled with self control/discipline for a long time. I've always found it easier to ask for forgiveness from myself than to ask for permission, and when I stopped forgiving and started hating, my drastic decline into obesity followed closely behind.

    About a year ago I started my weight loss journey with little to no real progress. Of course it's going to take time to lose it, but the thing that kept setting me back was my inability to control my cravings. I thought that because I had finally admitted I had a problem, "sought help", and gotten medicated that I was cured and that the pounds would just fall off. So when they didn't, I lost a lot of that steam. Fast forward a few months, and my sister and I are both having issues losing weight. We regularly chat about our struggles, and she said something that immediately clicked for me.

    Self control is a resource, and just like any resource, it can get depleted.

    For so long I've beat myself up for not being able to deny every craving, or for not being disciplined enough. Yes, I lack those things and I need to acknowledge that progress will be slow until I have them, but for right now my battle lies with building up my stores of Self Control. Just like the all the other muscles I'm working on in the gym, I need to work on my brain's Self Control muscle. For now, that doesn't mean denying myself every little craving, but maybe the some of the bigger ones at first. Then moving onto the medium ones, and then the small ones, until I can eventually say "No thanks, I'm good!" to the things I know are bad for me and my progress.

    I'm sure a lot of people have already come to this conclusion, but I felt that this was a great "Ah ha! Moment" for me. So, here's hoping this post can help someone out there struggling as I was. I'll always be a work in progress, but a huge part of that is thanks to my sister and to this sub. Thank you all for keeping me motivated, and I'll see you guys in Onederland!

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    [32yr F 5'1 220 pounds] I need a change.

    Posted: 24 Jun 2020 07:41 PM PDT

    Well due to being off work for over a month and endless beers and pizza I've gained over 30 pounds. I've always had an issue with my weight. I've never been a small person. I'm quite stocky. But getting up every single day and suddenly I can't wear my jeans, can't shave normally. I feel like an obese cat that tries to lick itself but can't reach. So I've been a heavy drinker for the past few years. Horrible stressful jobs. I've found a new job recently that is totally relaxed. So at this point I have stopped drinking to ease my stress. My focus is cutting out the beer(which I have) and of course calorie cuts and tracking. I bought some lean frozen meals and wondered if anyone here uses those to help get to your goals? This past week I'm down to 213 pounds but I just wanted to know if I'm going about it ok. What has helped you lose pounds? What meals help and motivation? I want to be around 145 pounds. My issues are over eating. I can have a meal and want seconds or thirds until I can't eat anymore. I always have this urge to eat as much as I can of what ever item I'm eating. (Recently I have been eating carrots and other veggies as a go to filler) no idea why I do this but I do it in excess. Let me know what you guys think would be good ideas or if those frozen meals are a bad idea. Thank you for reading my poor grammer and structure. Using my phone.

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    New Kind of Goal!

    Posted: 24 Jun 2020 12:30 PM PDT

    I wanted to share a mental breakthrough I've had, thought it may already be obvious to you. Thought it might help someone!

    My new goal: 90 DAYS. Not the 30-40lbs I'd like to lose, just 90 days. I am going to keep tracking what I eat 6 days a week and exercising 5-6 days a week for 90 days. I will try to keep IFing, but if that makes me feel bad I'll just go back to CICO. Either way, for 90 days I will keep going.

    The best part about this plan is that it is entirely in my control. That's what really hit me yesterday. I can't control how much weight I lose, how many inches I lose, how much stronger I get. I can only control my behaviors, so I'm going to set a behavioral goal. That way, It is actually true--and not just a catchy phrase--that my success is entirely in my hands.

    It might have been smarter to start with 30 days, but I've tried and failed too many times. YOU might do well with 30 days? Or even try 7 days at a time. The point is, if you set a goal that you actually control, you are in control of your success.

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    30 Day Accountability Challenge - Day 24

    Posted: 24 Jun 2020 04:58 PM PDT

    Hello losers,

    Just finished a HIIT workout & I'm feeling feisty. Hope you're likewise conquering!

    Weight by end of month (200 lbs, preferably trend weight): No weigh in this morning, 201.5 trend weight.

    Stay within calorie range (1500 ish): I didn't binge yesterday, huzzah. It was an all-day fight. Today should be good, gonna have some bocas for dinner.

    Exercise 5 days a week: 30 minute lunch walk & HIIT tonight. 20/24 days.

    Self-care time (journaling, working on love journals, beauty treatments, drawing 0/24 days): I'm jonsing for new work out leggings, any recommendations? I like Old Navy's active wear especially since I'm bound to size out of them before they die a heroic, sweaty death.

    Try a new recipe once a week: Curried chickpeas from dry beans, chickpea flour crepes (I helped, it counts), new recipe breakfast burritos, red sauce from semi scratch (canned tomatoes) & black-eyed pea soup so far. 5/5 weeks.

    50 pages of The Body Keeps the Score: Not tonight. 0/50 pages.

    No fast food or candy from the work dish: Day 22. Keeping this streak alive helped me say no to bingeing yesterday. 3 candy related lapses in judgement.

    Listen to my effing body: I got out for an extra walk yesterday. Helped with the anxiety level. The weeks where I have less access to higher intensity stuff because of various domestic & working situations are fucking tough.

    Be more mindful & express gratitude, avoid the hedonic treadmill: At the risk of rambling, I would like to discuss binge-eating urges. For me, the urges vary in intensity, like a spectrum. Sometimes it is a passing fancy, a split second yeah I could eat about 1000 calories of that shit. But it's that thing in particular, only, & it passes quickly, giving way to a variety of logical reasons not to binge.

    Other times, any fucking thing will do & the urges are insistent. All fucking day. The thoughts achieve the same level of distracting as someone talking to you, on your shoulder, all day while you're trying to focus on other shit. The pressure is so constant & unrelenting it feels easier to just fucking do it. State breaks help but not always. Yesterday it just stacked on top of my anxiety level like a plate weight & sat there all fucking day. In the same position, I have binged. I probably will again. I did not yesterday. A small victory & a bigger victory in learning. When you binge, take some time to examine your behaviors around it. What were you feeling, doing, experiencing that day? How did you feel before, during & after? Try not to judge yourself for any of that either losers.

    I could write more about my triggers, the feelings around it, all that jazz but I'll spare you haha. I will encourage you to discuss these things here if you feel safe to. No matter how far I come progress wise, there are days I absolutely feel like it's day one in my head.

    But it's not. No amount of feeling like you have failed take away the progress you've made kids. Even if that progress is just learning how you process this journey. Hugs!

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